The Butterfly Effect

I went shopping yet again today (sorry maggie but those boxing week sales are calling my name) and the stores have awesome deals. I even found jeans on the sale rack and got an additional 30% off. So I paid 15 bucks on 30 or 40 buck jeans.....=D And I gots new undies for me-self. Jacob has this 5 for 15 sale and I couldn't pass it up. They also had bra's in bins that were marked down and you get an additional 50% off. OMG! The shopping. The only downside was Urban and the shoe stores. Urban had awesome looking jeans but they are 350 bucks...ouch! And to even think that I'm not going to spend more than 30 for a pair. I even went to the sale racks in the back and there wasn't much in my size or price range. So I did a bit of shopping on my lunch hour. AH, retail therapy is awesome.

(8) you've got your mother and your brother tellin you what to say..... sorry guys this Kelly Clarkson song just came on and its awesome so I've gotta scream my lungs out....(8) Just walk away, Just walk away! I wanna love I wanna fire to burn my desires, i wanna man by my side, not a boy who runs and hides...I'm looking for attention not another question should you stay or should you go....

So I think part of one of my resolutions has been achieved. But I'm scared to act on any feelings. I'm still hung up on mr. wrong. I'm getting butterflies all over. Its kinda weird having these feelings again. I've known the guy since my second year of NAIT. So I think I'm gonna go for it but take things slowly. I'm scared. I had feelings for him before but I had to turn them off. And now that i'm able to turn them on again and actually act on them kinda scares me. Especially when he says such nice things to give me butterflies and has earned so many brownie points all in one day. I know that he's an awesome guy (well in a friend kinda light anyways) and that he's got alot of wonderful qualities. Is there something wrong with me if i'm still lingering and hanging on to something that isn't right for me and wanting to move on but am too chicken shit to do so? I know the answer is staring at me in the face and should just move on and forget the past but its the past that is in my memory. Its all those memories that are the killer. FRICK!