What's the problem with the human race?

So here's the low down. I don't think I can do this whole dating thing. Not yet anyways. I'm still emotionally unavailable. I just got back from coffee with Gary. Don't get me wrong, he's a nice guy and he's got a very nice wallet (not the wallet itself) but I don't think I like him, at all. I mean I did way back when and now there's nothing there. I don't feel shit. I was scared as shit before and I still kinda feel scared but.....hmmmm.... here lemme explain it a different way: you know when you long for something just to try it out and find out its not that great or you think what next, you've conquered something but then what? well I've kinda felt the same way with one exception, I don't feel anything. I don't feel anything for him.

And another thing, why is it that I've got tonnes of guys hanging off of me and drooling over me as of late? Let alone all the guys that I've caught checking me out. I got a txt msg from Jason (Amanda's brother) last night, I've got Gary, and my dear friend Mandi wants to set me up with someone. I guess its my time to shine and feel good. I love my new hair and new glasses that I got recently. Ok, i know its not brand new but hey, lemme enjoy the newness of it.

Gosh I need some more retail therapy! MATT! MAGGIE! Where are ya when I need ya?

So tomorrow we get to say goodbye to another year and welcome another one in. Mattie! I need to do something cause I don't want to sit on my couch and watch tv again this year. I actually have a job that gives this kinda time off and I've got no plans, wtf is wrong with me? I think I need to get drunk tomorrow night. Yeah. K, Matt, if u'r up for it, lets get plastered (or as far as our bodies will permit the alcohol).

So back to the ol' drawing board I go for my new years resolutions.

I went back to the gym today and I had an awesome workout. And the shower was even better. I didn't wanna get out (no there wasn't anyone else in there with me, you sicko, get your mind outta the gutter!). It was the perfect temperature and the water just felt so good. It felt kinda like my water therapy a while back. I came out feeling like my body, mind, and soul was cleansed all at once.