Is it a Matter of Life or Death?

I'm glad to have been your first....that's the title that I wanted to use the last time around, anyways that title refers to the night that one of the supervisors had evaluated me on the phone and I had told him that I had never been evaluated before (cause I never had to sign anything) and that was his response.

Somethin has been boggled up in my mind for the past lil while and maybe someone can help me to figure it out. Why is it that we spend so much time worrying about our material things? I mean if we forget something at home like a cell phone or a favorite pen or something that we place so much of value on that we have to stop and run back home just to grab that one thing that'll make our day so much better? Or if we lost something (whether it was expensive or just has some meaningless value to it) we are all bummed out because of it? Heck, what would happen if all of a sudden one day there was a fire or an earthquake (as I saw on the news this last weekend with people in--I can't remember what country) and all of our material things were destroyed...then what? I was listening to Barenaked Ladies If I had a Million Dollars this morning and as I listened to it, I wondered about life itself. Money makes this world go round, money is the root of all evil and without money, where would you be? And then I heard the end of the song where they said "if i had a million dollars, i'd be rich" and that's just it, you'd be rich, what else would you have? Everyone else breathing down your neck for your money, thinking that you're the answer to all of their problems or having investors trying to manage your money for you. Then i started thinkin about all of those rich celebrity folk and wondered, they have a whole lot of material things that possess their lives and yet, alot of them aren't happy either. So then why is it that we live around all of our material things and not around ourselves and just concentrate on things that make us happy. There's alot of stress in today's society - how you look, what size you are, what you wear, what time to be in at work, people driving us nuts, people we're pleasing, is my cell phone charged enough, is my paper gonna get a good grade, what are my test results gonna show and will it determine if i move on to another class or will I have to repeat it, the cost of lunch (are you willing to pay the extra 2.00 just for someone to make it for you or do you wanna go to the store to save the 2.00 and make it at home?), the kind of music you listen to, the kind of friends you have, the kind of car you drive, how much is in your bank account (will I have enough to get me through till my next payday, will I have enough to pay bills, when can I take a holiday or time to myself), am I too young to think about a future with someone or even think about a commitment, is the laundry soap i'm using smell ok does it have the right colour, will anyone notice if i got my hair cut, etc.

This world is always turning, what is the purpose that the Big Man Upstairs has for us? Everyone says that things take time but really, how much time should we take. An average person's life span is anywhere between 65-105 years old and then again someone could walk across the street and get hit by a bus or have something fall on top of them from a tall building and then there are still born babies born all around the world, not to mention conjoined twins. And the earth has been around for centuries. So really, we spend no more than 100 years on this earth and we spend everyday of our lives worrying about things that we shouldn't. So i'm putting a challenge up to each and everyone of you (including myself)...for one day, throw all of your worries out the window, don't answer your phone, don't play video games, don't go onto the computer, don't cook, don't work, don't do anything except take in what nature has given us. Go somewhere and watch, just watch everyone else around you go about their busy lives and then reflect on yourself on how your life is. Then just relax, take a day of serenity and enjoy it. Forget about everything and let your mind wander into a blissfulness of nothing. And then ask yourself how you feel. Is it really worth getting mad at something that won't matter in many years from now?