Too stupid to understand simple things

I fockin hate stupid ppl. If you're too stupid to figure it out cuz gosh forbid it'd be right in front of your face then fock off! Geezz. Hey can you scan this for me? don't you know how to scan? I dunno how to I can try......FOCK! you've been here longer than I have, shouldn't you know the in's and out's of this place? If I dunno something then I ask and I learn and retain it for later so that I don't have to be taught 500 thousand odd times. Hey, can you help me find this file? ok, here it is ( i pull out one file of like 7 or 8) oh this is it but it doesn't have what i'm looking for, well dumbass, would you want to try the other files that are right behind it? FOCK! Does anyone know how to use their resources? everyone always wants the easy way out and doesn't want to reference anything before going to someone who knows shit all about what you're working on. Its a fock'n waste of time if you ask me. shit is just up shit creek. shit fock shit!

I can't wait till I'm outta here. No more hey, can you cover the front reception whilst I'm gone. I'm goin somewhere ya wanna come out? NO! i'm not your fock'n bitch. I've got my own work to do and get done do it yourself or get someone else. I hate your desk, its messy and no matter how many times i've tried to organize it, it ends up the same fock'n way! I'm a meezly file clerk. I have enough junk to clean up and get rid of before I leave, and I don't need to be doing any of your work or picking up after you. If you want me to watch over things fine. I'll do it from my desk. If you don't like it then find someone else. I'm just a friggin lap dog here and I'm sooooo glad i'm outta here. I get shit for this, I get shit for that. I just don't give a fock anymore so fock off!

A mindless punching bag

This blog is just to rant about work. I've decided to rant instead of get mad cuz i'm ready to walk out of this place and never look back. But that won't solve anything and I need a job atm.

I'm so frustrated and pissed off its not funny. I'm trying to set up meetings to help with a consultant who is suposedly hired on (from the records department) to help manage/clean up the filing process in the department i'm working in. I've only got half of the responses back. Some of the people don't care what happens in the meeting but everyone cares about the paper in the office whether it's useful now or later. So i've gotten rid of tonnes and tonnes of paper within the last year and I'm pattin myself on the back for the amount of clean up I did do. Now there's all this other shit that i'm trying to fit into their respective files and that's taking a bit of time to track them down cuz they are either active and in our file room or they have been sent off to be archived for a certain amount of time and then destroyed. YAY for me. I have work to do. My problem is some of the people in the office don't want to co-operate with me to get things in a better fashion and not have so much junk just laying around forever. Then I get more work dumped (literally) on me that has to be done like right now. HELLO!?! do you not see that i'm buried in a mountain of shit that no one else wanted to clean up and just left to collect dust until I came along to clean? FOR FOCK SAKES! FOCK!

On a lighter note, i've got a job interview with Deloitte and Touche as a filing clerk. So hopefully I can land there and get a pay raise plus a full time job with benefits and I won't have to look back on this place that hasn't done shit for me in the past two years since i've been here. I mean hey, I have a job and a nice paycheque but that's pretty much it. The last contract I was on was set to expire at the end of last month and now they are doing something about it. They're actually creating a position for me to actually be in...a full time permanent position. I'm sorry but, government is stupid. They're the ones who control the democratic world we live in but it's like talking to an old person. Things happen at snails pace and it's very hard to get a position here. I was just glad to have gotten out of sev at the time. Now I want out of this place. Everyone says that government is the place to be and if you can get in then stay there. FOCK NO! I say run for the hills in this case. There's tonnes of old ppl that have been in their current positions from the dinosaur age and they're not about to give it up to some lil shit who just came out of college and who knows the in's and out's of the information age. And that's another thing. We're living in the information age and its supposed to be paperless or almost there. Well, that isn't the case here. Everyone keeps everything and they don't do shit with it. And all the old ppl have to print off everything just to see it in black and white rather than on the computer because they can't read it in black and white on a simple screen. I don't get it. They can watch TV until gosh knows when but they can't read something on the computer.

Anyways, I think i'm done for now.

Warning! Blog has sensitive material. Do not read paragraph 1 if you have virgin eyes!

Unknown fact: (note: this is not intended to say anything or has any hidden meaning in my personal life) According to Cosmo 80% of males do not know what or where a clitoris is. For those males who do read this (don't get all grossed out. Its just an FYI), its the lil bumpy thingy on the outside of a woman's genital area. It is not located on the inside. The G-spot is inside. (And I am pulling this part from Cosmo as well) You need both stimulations to have euphoric like orgasms.

Its been a while since my last blog. I've had full intentions of blogging but with my workload piling up by the day and my lovely prince taking up the majority of my personal life there isn't much time to do much of other things. I've been slacking of on going to the gym. I've left my housework to pile up. Meh. It'll get done eventually.

My wisdom teeth thingy went very well. I came outta my surgery and my mouth was frozen all day (note: my appt was in the morning and I was out by lunch time). So I couldn't eat or drink anything all day. I did attempt to but because I couldn't feel anything any liquids would run down my face. My lovely prince did come by my mommy's house and made sure I was ok. Thanks a bunch sweetness!

Went to the lake this past weekend. The mr tried out his new wakeboard and I got to test out my new wet suit. I worked on my tan + tan lines. I didn't get much darker prolly cuz of the high spf sunlotion I was using. Meh, I'll eventually get darker. I did however get eaten alive out there. I was helping to pull out some weeds but forgot to put on bug juice. I didn't think they'd be that bad in the middle of the day. BIG MISTAKE!

The Russell Peters show was awesome. I enjoyed it alot. Shanks Mr. Mattie!

I'm now looking to find other means of work. This contract business isn't what I want to be on for the rest of my life. I've already applied to different positions and I have yet to hear back from one of them. I was even thinking about getting a part-time position when I get back from vegas just for extra spending/saving funds. The housing market is slowing down and It might not be that long until I buy my own house (not that I am house shopping) but I don't want to be living at home/pop's basement forever.

FYI: I'm taking July 20th off just to go to k-days before vegas, if anyone else is interested.
Mz Maggie: I'll book a spa thing morning of the 20th and then we can go to k-days.

I think that's pretty much it for now. Toodles kiddies!

busy-busy, vroom-vroom! meep meep bad driver commin through!

So its been 9 days since my last blog...nuff said. Its not like a whole lot of ppl are interested in what goes on in my day to day life, right?

My handsome lovely prince took me out to the lake (Lac St. Anne) a lil while back and he took me out on his new boat and I had a blast. Apparently he topped out at 85 clicks on the water. HOLY CRAPPERS!?! The wind in my face, the coldness. I enjoyed myself. His mom and I went to the Farmers market picked up some meat and then went back to the trailer/property. Twas really hot sitting in the sun fully clothed so I went and got into my brand new bikini and slapped on some sunscreen and did some sun bathing on top of the boat. I got a bit of a tan, hardly noticable... I didn't even notice any difference. But I had a blast out there. I'd even make the 1hr's drive out just to enjoy the sun and get away from the city. It was well worth it. The peacefulness and serenity, especially out on the lake.

Mz. Maggie, I'm sure that last saturday wasn't what you wanted as a party, but I know for a fact that my hunnie bunny and I had a blast, specially with bomer man. It was fun and awesome. Twas funny that Matt gave you shit for doing stuff when it was u'r party. Mr. Matt: Thanks for hosting.

Now for Mr. Allan's party. I'm sad to report that I won't be going. I have to babysit that weekend as it is when pops has decided to leave town for Red Deer (?). And I cannot (under any circumstance) leave my dogs home alone at any time.

This weekend is so packed. I've got a bbq with work tomm night at borden park, then corporate challenge sat morn at WEM, and the MS walk on sunday. Then its back to the grindstone on monday.

Grrr. Pops is really getting on my nerves as of late. Gosh darn old ppl and new age technology. I spend more time explaining how things work than him actually taking advantage of how the damn thing works. I had to explain over and over and over that bluetooth is not a headset but rather a program that allows you to use the wireless headset. If he gets a new phone, I have to be the one to program it or figure out how to change some sorta setting. Everytime there's a new electronic toy, I have to be the one to help set it up and figure out how things work because he's old and his eyes don't work like mine. I can't cook because I'm not allowed to make a mess in the kitchen. I'm not allowed to bake anything because that'll mean that i'm turning on the oven and having excess heat in the house. I can't iron (I went to do my ironing last night and only got 1/2 of it done) because he needs to ask me some important question and feed me strawberries. I can't stay downstairs and do some of my stuff and get some housework done or watch a movie/tv cause he's more important and I should be spending time with him upstairs. I can't have someone over when I feel like it, it has to be scheduled so that the house doesn't look like shit and gosh forbid if I do bring someone and I didn't let him know. And shit. Apparently I don't get out enough and I'm an old person because I like to sit and watch movies in the basement rather than go clubbing. But when I do go out, I get shit for comming in at 1:30 or 2:00 in the morning for disturbing the house. Like frick! I really don't care. I have a friggin life too. I'm tryin my darndest to stay out of the house most of the time so that I don't get the third degree on anything.

I've applied to this position with the City of Potholes. Better pay, permanent position. I like working where I am, eventhough I hate my job. I'm not complaining. Its much better than sevy levy working like a slave and getting shit out of it. So, here's hoping they call me up and offer me something.

As for work itself, the mobile shelving is up and running and I am loving it. I'm half tempted to bring in a pillow and blanket and make up a bed on one of the bottom shelves.

I went and did some spring cleaning last monday and rearranged my bedroom and now I feel so much better. The main reason for it was because apparently a cat got into the house and went into my room (pops leaves the back door open for the dogs to go in and out of the house) and left a pee smell. I tore my entire room apart and found out that it was on my blankets. So into the washer they went. The smell came out, which I am so happy about. And I got all of the cobwebs and dead bugs out of everywhere. Now I just have to tackle my closet. Its where everything goes. Clean clothes, ironing, shoes, store purchases, my linens, I've even got some of my booze from new years in there.

Man Bashing

During work today, a co worker of mine decided to pay me a visit so we chatted a bit and I went onto facebook and showed her my mypace acc't and blah blah blah. So I clicked onto my dear x's page just to show her who he is and hey, i haven't made any attempt to contact him or even visit his page since mid march or so. So i'm just putz'n around and decided to go and read his blog and what'ya know. He's woman bashin me and i'm right out pissed off now. Apparently someone (who reads my blogs) paid him a visit at Kingsway and had a conversation with him. According to him I cheated on him but in reality, he gave me full rights to not wait for him and told me that we are basically nothing. I finally gave up on the bastard when he decided to walk away from me and not even want to work things out (aka, new girlfriend). I gave it my best shot and he threw everything back in my face. FOCK'N PRICK. He can rot in FOCK'N Hell. That's what he deserves anyways. After the way he's treated me and thrown me around.

Here's where someone comes in and tells me.....who talked to him? I don't really care what was said, I'd just like to know who it was that stood up and took that stand. I'm really proud of you whomever you are. I didn't mention the whole Joe thing because it didn't happen as he said it did. If you want to know the whole story, please contact me and i'll tell you. Its just too much to say here on my blog.

Gosh, i fock'n hate him. FOCK!

Oh, and did i forget to mention that i'm not in the greatest of moods! Yea, I'm PMS'n and i've got some problems that i've got to visit the doctor for and i'm really pissed off.

So here's to an awesome fock of a miserable kinda day. Fukitol....hey, wait a min....mr. mattie: do you have any extra's kickin around?

I'm standing tall, proud and happy

The short version: I have a good job, awesome friends, over-the-top perfect bf, and lovin my life.

The long version:

So, signing up to facebook wasn't so bad. I mean I've got tonnes of friends on there. I'm getting in touch with friends that I lost touch with a long while ago. It feels great to finally get back in touch with some of them again.

I'm finally getting my wisdom plucked from me. That's right everyone, my teeth are comming out. The date: June 21. That was the first date that was availiable otherwise i'd be looking into July and I don't want it to be conflicting with the vegas trip. I contacted payroll and benefits, and I have accumulated 6 sick days off with pay. No worries what so ever. That'll be plenty of time. If I go back to work early then I can use the rest of my sick time for vegas. YAY! So, I have asked (very politely) for my wonderful prince to take very good care of me. Even pops said he'll "have to be nice to me for those days"

Work: Where the fock to I begin? I'm just starting to get things under control. I was boxing files for a bit and then the Exeuctive Director (ED) decided to tell me that the reception area didn't "look professional" and inquired as to when the boxes behind my desk would be moving. Well fock! I don't have a freakin office and was forced to sit where I am until further notice. Well my further notice came and I don't have to report to you. FOCK! As of July 1, I am with that other department and I don't have to worry bout shit. In the mean time, i'm just a piece of meat being thrown in between departments to get shit done. I don't even have a desk to work from on the 15th floor atm. But anyways, those boxes are finally done and moved to the storage facility so that the ED doesn't have to look at them and bitch about it. The mobile shelving is looking good. Its all electric and fancy and shit. My desk (the current one i'm using on the 18th floor) is finally getting cleaned off too. I haven't seen my desktop (all of it) for the past couple of months. I might start looking for another place to work. I dunno.

Friends:
Maggie: it's u'r big day here soon. Whatcha want to do? Whatcha want?
Matt: Wii Wii....come on we gots to do somethin here. i'm havin really bad wii wii withdrawls. It was awesome when we'd just hang, get lil ceasers and play.
Allan: well, u just suck cuz u'r in hell atm.

I miss our hanging out at sev times.

BF: I love you to death. "I've got wings to fly, I feel like i'm alive. You've set my heart on fire, filled me love, made me woman on clouds above. I couldn't get much higher, my spirit takes flight" (Just listening to Celine Dion's Alive atm). Mr. Prince has been spending lots of time with me and i'm lovin it. He's taking me for long walks around Beaumaris Lake. Its quite refreshing to go out and get in the fresh air. The wet leaves on the trail that happen to get on the back of my legs are another story. Last friday we went over to his buddy's house and played poker. There's a $20 buy in. Well, I was playin and I thought I had one hand then poof, I'm out. I was kinda bummed but I had fun being out and just spending time with his group that I didn't even think twice bout the money. There was one guy there who is a shit disturber and he got on everyone's nerves. In the end, he got kicked out of the house. But anyways. It's been over a month already and I'm apparently supposed to be married to my prince and have a grandchild on the way by now. (btw: the girls at work wanted me to go wedding dress shopping with them two weeks into the relationship--and that was like 3 weeks ago).

So mz. maggie and I are volunteering at the MS walk thing. And I just realized that I have Corporate Challenge stuff the day before (on the 26th). Wow...lemme just take a min to recap some events:
May 22: MS walk volunteer info session
May 26: Corporate Challenge
May 27: MS Walk Volunteer
June 12: Mr. Prince writes his national exam
June 14: Russell Peters
June 15-17: Mumz and Pops are goin out of town and I'm babysitting (I can't leave the house that weekend)
June 21: Wisdom teeth out
June 29: return to work
July 21-29: VEGAS!

OMG! i'm so busy! I didn't even realize it either.....ACK!

Tinker Tinker

Ok, so I got sucked into signing up for facebook. I know, I said that I wasn't going to but so many ppl are like hey, you should sign up, when I signed up I started talking to ppl I haven't talked to in many years....or, I need more friends, sign up it'll be fun....grrr....so, I signed up to see what the hype was all about. So far, I'm not liking the set up that much. It seems quite similar to Myspace. Hopefully when I get home, I can tinker with it a bit and try to figure things out.

Work is so hecktic atm. Mobile shelving is comming in so all the old stuff has to go out. Today is the big moving day to pack up the file room on the 15th floor. There's like 5 guys (old fogues no hot ones) packin everything up and clearing out the room. I was down there this morning and there is so much garbage....I just want to torch this entire place to rid the gov't of the mess. It bothers me so much that ppl don't keep up with things and collect it all. I get that there are lots of things to do during the day and there are higher priorities to be done but come on. If there's something that u'r not going to be using anymore, then do something about it. Don't leave it on your desk then 5 years later come across it and expect me to figure out wtf its for cuz i don't know or give a damn. GRRRR! So anyways, when everything is all said and done downstairs, I get to come up to the 18th floor and do it all over again (except the majority of the junk has been cleaned up on the 18th). Oh, and to top things off, there are these files that I have to go through and take out any and all personal info so that the lawyers at Delloite and Touche (sp?) can view the files before the hearing takes place sometime in June. Then there are a bunch of files that I've been trying to box up and get rid of on the 18th floor and after all is said and done, I also have more boxing of files to do in the Deputy Minister's office. So really, i'm getting paid to work out and build muscles. I'm not complaining or anything but I feel so under pressure atm and needed to get it out of my system. I've got so much work to do in so little time.

Things in the relationship department couldn't be any better. I love my handsome prince to death. Yesterday, he had the day off (in-lieu of end of tax season....day of rest i guess you could call it) and he came up to visit me in the office. I was expecting him dt for lunch time but he showed up early. One of the management ladies told me to go for an early lunch. We went to the Creperie. Twas good food. Shanks for the recommendation mz. aggie. The only beef was that Gary thought it smelled like ass when we walked in. I agree that there was a funky smell but I enjoyed it nonetheless. So then afterwards he went and did his thing and came back to pick me up. Whilst waiting for me (at lunch and after work) the other girls in the office grilled him up and down. It was quite funny actually. Later on, we ended up going out to Sherwood Park and hung out with one of his buddies. And watched the Anaheim/Canucks game. I drove cuz they wanted to get liquored. There was a part of me that was feeling like hey, this is another one of those Joe kinda moments where he'd get drunk and expect me to drive him home but then I told myself that it wasn't and I was out having a good time and that Gary is not Joe. He doesn't even compare to him at all. Gary is so much better than him and treats me with so much respect and dignity. Then I wanted to kick myself for even thinking such thoughts. So yall can slap me for that cuz I do deserve it. Its just one of those things that I need to work over and get out of my head. I find it a pretty good sign when my guy and his buddies like me, and are willing to belt out some of the tunes that I have sitting in my car (even the tunes that I don't know the words to). That just adds to the awesomeness list in my books. Cuz that was one thing that bugged me bout Joe, he'd always dominate the radio in my car. It was kinda like lets play my music cuz u'rs is lame and stupid. Shit there I go again. Someone please slap this guy out of my head cuz I don't want him there anymore.

So my car is off to the doctor's to get fix'd. I've gotta have this strip on the top of my car fixed. The carpets steam cleaned (from that bubble milk that was spilled in the back), and an oil change. Maggie suggested that I just put a big ol' bandaid on it and i'll be fine. LOL!

I finally went to the dentist and i'm finally getting my wisdom taken from me. No, i'm not going to get dumber.....My wisdom teeth are finally gonna come out. When? I dunno. My dentist has referred me to this oral and facial surgeon on the southside and I've gotta call and make an appt. In the mean time, i've got some sorta infection between my teeth (cuz i has no room for them and they're pushing against the rest of my teeth and ruining my bite) and i've got antibiotics to try and get rid of it (apparently that was what was causing my jaw and my teeth to hurt). My dentist took an x-ray and they haven't moved much in two years. So he's gonna get all 4 of them out for me so that I won't have to live with this stupid pain anymore. YAY for drugs! I get to be put under apparently so I won't feel a thing. Now if I can just convince my lovely Gary to take care of me.....hmmmmmm =P

I went shopping again this past weekend. My mommie and I had a blast. We went to Army and Navy and Hangers at Londonderry. I bought some more tank tops and bought a Reitmans dress all for dirt cheap. Awesome! I feel like I'm getting fat cuz my clothes are getting bigger but i'm not gaining any weight. Everyone tells me that i'm building muscle mass so I need't worry bout a thing. I tried out that tube top from H&W and it fits perfectly (still kinda bummed that they didn't have that peachy coloured one that I wanted in my size but tis ok)