Its a long way up and I don't want to come down off of cloud #9

Ok. First and foremost, the Nelly Furtado concert was great. I think that the opening bands sucked but meh. I also think that Nelly coulda done without the backup dancers but whatever, she still put on an awesome performance.

So as to my title: I went out on a date. I thought we were just goin for coffee and that was all that it was supposed to be. Then looking at the times we decided dinner. Okies. Brewsters? okies. Comes and picks me up. No brewsters. We're goin to this lil italian place (close by Mt. Fuji in Namao Centre) and we spent like 3hrs there. So we talk and talk and talk and next thing I know, I've got all these butterflies again. AH! I'm feelin so high right now, I can barely type all this out. (Oh, and btw yall its Gary). So, now that i'm just starting to get over mr. jerk, I can now devote my energy to this wonderful guy who not only thinks i'm smart and good looking, but also wants me just the way I am. I'm kinda reluctant and scared to open up and let him in just cause I don't want to get hurt again. I don't really know him in the relationship kinda sense to know anything. In the business sense, he's an awesome guy. One that i'd be proud to call a friend (just like all of my friends). I'm just on this cloud that has been established out of no where. I'm floating around like i dunno. He left me feeling like I want more and this feeling is just unbelievable. Yes, I'll admit he's not that great of a kisser but his passion behind his kisses are enough to make me forget about the rest. He and I came to an agreement that we won't be "visiting the backseat of the car" for quite a long time. So, I think we actually have a shot at it this time. I can honestly say, that I'm ready to start dating again and not think about someone else at the same time.

Guy friends?

I just flossed my teeth and my gums are throbbing. ARG! My wisdom teeth are pissin me off big time. They've pushed my other teeth and so now my x-rays at the dentist shows that me teeth are crook'd. Hopefully I don't hafta have braces afterwards. Me dentist doesn't wanna pull them just yet cuz they ain't peekin through my gums yet, so in the mean time, i has to grin and bear it. =D

I bought a new purse on Mon (or was it Tues?). Its so cute. I love it. The place I bought it from is havin this big 50-75 % off on the entire stock so hey, why not? I'm gonna eventually need a travel bag for vegas so why not?

I've got a bit of a delema on the guy situation. Two men have contacted me, and want updates. AH! Oh, maybe I should mention who they are......hehehe. Alrighties: Matt. That Army guy that my dearest x-best friend/sister Amanda was dating, and Mr. Gary. Yup that one guy I had gone to school with. He got mad at me and ended up buggering off. I don't blame him, seeing as I said and did some pretty mean things to him. I had told him that I would be his friend. Well, I think that things have finally cooled off with him, and that we could do the whole friend thing. Now, for the army guy: he sez he's been wonderin about wtf happened to me, but i've got the feeling that he want's somethin outta me. I came right out and asked him if he did but he deny'd the whole thing. So, i dunno. Just gotta wait and see i guess.

So, apparently T&T will be moving into Northtown Mall. London Drugs will be moving down to where Winners and Shoe Warehouse used to be and Rogers Video will be moving beside BP's. As for everyone else in the mall, well, as soon as their lease is up, they've got the boot.

Girls I'd like to Make a Toast on Behalf of Men. Here's to the Men we love, Here's to the Men who love us. Here's to the Men we Love who don't Love Us

FOCK THE MEN, LETS DRINK TO US!

Hey mother focker get laid get fock'd!

That's right, i'm singin along to the song and beltin it out at the top of my lungs. Pops prolly thinks i'm crazy yellin it off in the basement but whatever. I'm letting off a bunch of pent up anger and havin fun at the same time.

In reference to my last blog....all of that was written from my heart. It's not taken from anyone. I wrote all of it. I was quite upset and needed to vent. I am now in that stage where i'm say'n fock all fock'n men. They can all go to fock'n hell. I'm tired of being treated like shit and its my turn to stand up and rid myself of the garbage and excess baggage that i've been carry'n around. If he wants me back he's gotta be the one to change, not me. He's got my number (which i'm really contemplating on changing). I've done my part and tried too hard, gone the extra mile and shit, and I get treated like garbage. So fock'em. Fock'em all. I'll eventually find someone who'll want me and will treat me with the dignity and respect that i deserve. If not, well, I'm sure i'll be just as happy on my own living life and not worry'n bout kids, divorces, splitting things 50/50, and all that other shit that comes with a spouse. I'm happy just the way I am. I'm alot happier without a man in my life atm. FYI: this message was not intended to hurt anyone, I just needed to vent and i've done so, i feel better. In the future, if i talk about the subject, u'll be seein alot more of these kinda messages. Just so that you know.

So I got the 'paperwork' and signed it for my official transfer over to the other department i'm now belonging to. I officially start getting paid from them on April 1st but I still hafta work under my department for three mos before I'm no longer a piece of meat goin back and forth everyday (I feel like i'm goin to mom's house in the morning and dad's house in the afternoon). Before I signed the paperwork, i asked a few questions and got my answers. I'm gonna be learning alot of stuff. The file room will basically be mine (cause that's just my area of expertise) and i'll be covering off on reception quite often.

So, i've booked off my vacation to vegas. Both departments I'm workin in (atm) know that i'm goin so BRING ON VEGAS BAYBE!

Mz. Maggie: I got two words for ya......NELLY FURTADO! its quickly approaching...this monday.....u ready for a concert or what? I'm slowly working on your scrubs. They are comming, i've already washed, dried, and ironed the material, and cut out the pattern. i've just gotta read over the instructions and whip out my machine and just go for it. I might just get to them this weekend. We'll see. =)

Yuk Yuks last Sat was awesome. I loved the laughter that it brought. I had an awesome time. Its just too bad that there weren't anymore ppl and that we were outta there by 9:30. I coulda stayed there for the next showing. Oh well, bring on Russell Peters. That show will rock! I can't wait for that show to come up.

Talked to one of my old high school buddies last night, and I must say that it was awesome. Its weird cuz he's different and all but it felt good to just talk and catch up. Wait a min, don't ppl do that over coffee and in person? is this how we're living now, doin internet/msn coffee?.......I just thinking out loud. Kinda weird how we're living now hey? internet dating, msn, txt msg's.....look at how the technology is these days. I mean like if i leave the house I hafta have my cell on me. If I don't I has to go back and get it and just 5 yrs ago, i was barely using one.

OMG! i'm getting into so many of these retro songs! Bee Gees, Elvis Prestley, Bon Jovi, I even dl'd that one song from back to the future with Michael J. Fox Johnny B. Good, and that Phenomenon song. The Chordettes (they do that lollipop song and Mr. Sandman). I guess I'm burning out all of those feel good songs that I can just turn up the volume and sing along to.

So as you all have noticed from my msn name, I took an IQ test. I took it on Sunday night on CBC. There was 60 questions and they all had a time limit to it so I was panicky and got such a low IQ. There was an in studio audience which consisted of 8 or so different groups of ppl. Surgeons, millionairs, tatoo artists, mayors, celebrities and a bunch of others that I can't remember off the top of my head. So it turned out that the surgeons were the ones with the highest IQ. I taped the show so if anyone wants to watch it, lemme know. Otherwise go take the test at www.cbc.ca/testthenation

Men are Dicks

I believed in him.
I believed every word he told me.
I believed that there was something.
I wanted love and I felt loved.

We have fun
I get no sleep
Sleep in class, miss notes, fail exams
I took a chance. Wanted love and felt it.

Cans turn to bottles
Bottles turn into parties
Bottle turns into cup at the bar or gig
One turns into many

Then out of the blue its all taken away from me.
I start analyzing what happened, what if, was it me, was it my fault.
Want to say goodbye. Coffee

One more chance I say, just one.
You have x amount of time to clean up.

Don't make it that far.
We part ways.
He still parades around me
His stupid friends thinks its all a game
Its all torture, I have society to live in

Get a message not intended for me and find out there's another
He's moved on, my nightmares have just begun.
I spiral out of control.
Unable to stop myself
End up lying

They break up
We are back together, unofficially

Time is awesome.
I want love, I feel loved.
My head is sayin keep your guard up
My heart says go for it, you only live once
Things are alright
He wants to live together, and has wanted to since the very beginning
Find out my best friend is a two faced bitch
Find out alot of other information
I walk out
I get crushed yet again.
Want to be taken back to be reconsidered. Beg and Plead to him

Love my friends to death.
I cry, I stuff my face, I go to gym, I read a book or two and I'm starting back on my own two feet.
Awesome

I get a call one night, get suckered in and next thing I know I'm in limbo torturing myself.
Knew it was wrong but couldn't help myself
Drunk and sleepless
Told me there was and is a future
I wanted to believe him
Visit him every once in a blue moon

Was proud of some of his choices to be a better man
I sit in wonderment
Told me he was doing it all for me
I believed him
Torture myself by reading up on him
Torture myself into what he wrote about
Find out there's someone else
I'm crushed

I want something I can't have.
I want to have that possession over him that he's mine

Figure out that he's a bastard
Always was always will be.
Nothing has changed and nothing will
Getting tired of his writings on me, they are reminder of why I shouldn't ask for him back
Getting tired of being the only one doing anything
Looking into myself and finding a better person
Looking for Mr. Right or Career with nice Salary

--tortured with hatred and crushed by love--

Entertainment Night =)

Hey all -- i'm sendin out a shout out to all of my friends sayin hey its Monday and Spring is in the air (I dunno why I feel so good)

So, you want info and here it is:

• Yuk Yuks
  Saturday March 17, 2007
  Nikki Payne Showing 8:00 pm
  Doors open at 7:00 (I say get there early to get good tix)
  Whose drivin: ?!? Boys, u can fight over this one, otherwise i'll bust out in my lil motorized wheels

Mz Maggie:

• Nelly Furtado
  Monday March 26, 2007
  Shaw Conference Centre I believe it starts at 7:00 (I'll hafta double check the tix)

Dunno if you work on that Monday or not but I'll get off work and then go get my car then come get you (wherever you are) and go to shaw

I got an email today for an advanced screening:

• Movie: "SHOOTER" with Mark Wahlberg
  Date: Wednesday, March 21, 2007
  Time: 7.00 P.M. ("6.30" to guarantee a seat)
  Theatre: North Edmonton Cinema - 14231 - 137th Avenue

I sent out a copy of this email out to everyone. They're free tix, so if you wanna go, lemme know cause i'll run down and grab the tix whilst they are still hot. (I'm sure that they'll go). I assume that the movie theatre close to us would have been a better choice than the West Ed one.

• I'm really really excited about the Vegas Trip.
• Hopefully Mr. Matt gets more info about Ozzfest. I haven't seen anything in the paper yet/at all.

I gots a new TV. Pops decided to buy a 52" Samsung, and he asked me if I wanted his old one. So I bought it off of him. 42" Plasma Legend. (tis a big difference from my 27"--gave it to my mummy). So if at anytime, you guys wanna watch movies or have Wii night at my place, I has a new tv. YAY!

Went to Lux Steakhouse last Fri. It was awesome. A bit pricey but awesome. There was a cute waiter that was serving us. I'd like to make a repeat visit there. Maybe for Martoonie Thursday?

First Signs of Spring

First day of spring. Or so it feels like it. I walked out of the house this morning and listened to all of the birds talking back and fourth and it felt nice to hear something that has been missing for many months. And going out at lunch time (not realizing that I should have taken my coat with me) it was quite slushy and beautiful out there. The temp isn't quite warm enough to be waltzin around without insulation but its warm enough to know that the cold snap is over. Overall, I think its an awesome atmosphere.

I was on the bus this morning standing there, on my way to Northgate and there's this cute guy sitting there. I'm thinkin to myself hey, he's cute. I didn't check his finger for a ring but I can tell he's older than me. Not too much older. And, he had dried paint all over his clothes (white paint). Anyways...at Northgate, he gave up his seat and told me to sit. I told him that it was fine and I could stand but he just kept standing. Hmmmm, makes me wonder...was he checkin me out? did he think I was cute? No one ever does that. Hmmmm........

Work: YAY! I has a Salary position commin in June. I will be on wages until that time. I'm gonna miss havin money every two weeks but I still have a job atleast. The job will be in that other department I go to for 1/2 days. And more than likely it'll be a permanent position. Hopefully I get into some benefits too. I had wanted to go out last night to celebrate (and cause I looked good in what I was wearin too--want details? ask, i'd be more than obliged to describe. Sorry no pics) but everyone was busy. Meh, tis alright. Maybe next time or when I sign papers. We'll see.

Wii night with all four of us waz awesome (last sat). I had an awesome time hangin out.

ALLAN! Get me ringtones.......this is a reminder. www.gregbehrendt.com

Matt, shanks for bein my go-to guy when I get an urge to talk to him. Thanks for talkin me out of it all of the time.

Upcomming events:
Nikki Payne at Yuk Yuks on Sat Mar 17
Nelly Furtado at Shaw Conference Centre Monday Mar 26

Vegas Trip end of July
Ozzfest TBD